You are beautiful. Really. Not the "you are beautiful because you are my daughter but you are actually kind of ugly" kind-of-way.. I mean.. you are beautiful in the "you are my daughter so it doesn't matter how you look" kind of way, but you are also beautiful in the very superficial unimportant way. Your face just makes me smile. Your eyes are so gorgeous and filled with curiousity. Your little mouth makes the funniest expressions (especially when you poop... I'm just sayin'....)
Even if you were the ugliest little scrawny baby in the world, though, I would love you so deeply. This is a great lesson in life. Looks truly do no matter. I know you will be beautiful your whole life, but I want you to know that even when you feel ugly and gross (because everyone does sometimes), your mother and your father and the rest of your family and the true friends you have made do not even notice or care. It really doesn't make any difference. You will always have love surrounding you.
I have not always felt pretty in my life. I have been very sad and miserable at times because I felt ugly, which led me to feel worthless. This world does that to people, especially women. As I have grown and matured, I have realized how absurd those feelings are, but they would still creep in from time to time. Now, though, I have you, and I realize what is really important: Loving the ones that love you and caring for your family and friends. I knew this before, but never felt it to be so true until I held you for the first time.
You are now in the real world, and I am now really your mother. These two facts blow my mind. These two facts change everything. These two facts now make everything in my life make sense. You have given me purpose, and I will always give you love. We will always have each other. No matter what. Really. No matter what.
Alright baby girl. You are sleeping on daddy's chest right now, but I am sure you will be up soon and wanting your 4th lunch of the day so I'm going to go take care of that.
Welcome home.
Love you more every day,
Mommy
